loss

depressed mess in the mornings.

i have gone back to waking up at 5 all of the time without any alarms set.

have a shower and stare into the walls. i think about him constantly.

i get out and stare at myself in the mirror and see him looking back. i lose myself.

never was super close with him as i grew older but he is what is left of me. it's depressing. i feel like i am losing a part of myself in the process.

he made me.

he won't be around much longer.

it's shittier when you know when.

i love him.