testing

im going for tests for down there stuff.

i have been feeling good for the last few days but made an apt to talk to my doc about stuff.

she wants an immediate scope but that sounds way too savage for me, i can't even handle needles (ie. i'll probably freak out and faint).

she asked about taking blood and my gut said no but my brain said yes. i haven't had my blood taken since i went to find out about chest problems 18 years ago so i told her yeah ill submit to that.

yeah im already dying inside about the thought all of this i just hope im actually feeling better and this isnt a one off feeling. at the same time i wanna be safe. i said that ill do the scope if necessary but id prefer that as last resort.

it's been since january.